grobanness.

there are several favorite playlist selections i have while doing work. they must each involve the perfect combination of giving me enough focus so my mind doesn't wander, but not too much focus on the music itself that it becomes a distractor instead of an attenuator. my collection of josh groban music typically falls perfectly into that category (partially because many of his lyrics are in italian, so i couldn't sing along if i tried..).

however, maybe this focusable theory is not entirely true, because it took much might to not want to write this blog post while writing my paper the other night. i successfully did not, though. but i'm writing it now, which may be equally as bad, as there are plenty of things i probably should be doing instead. *shrugs*

i think i just want to list lyrics that struck me, without saying anything about them. somehow writing about them feels like it would cheapen them?


Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine
Your face I've memorized


And I believe in you
Although you never asked me to
I will remember you
And what life put you through


Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away


You can hold me only
If you too will fall
Away from all these
Useless fears and chains


Let me fall
Let me climb
There's a moment when fear
And dreams must collide


Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds and violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colours changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artists' loving hand


I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.


Like the sound of silence calling,
I hear your voice and suddenly
I'm falling, lost in a dream
Like the echoes of our souls are meeting


Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time


Remember when it rained.
Felt the ground and looked up high
And called your name.
Remember when it rained.
In the darkness I remain.
Tears of hope run down my skin.
Tears for you that will not dry.
They magnify the one within
And let the outside slowly die.


I can't understand it
The search for an answer is met with a darker day
And we've been handed these moments forever
But I'm reassured there's another way.


Broken, once connected,
We were so strong and so blessed in a simple way.
So don't let me go it alone
Turn your head up to the sky
Nothing down below but me
Face the truth to realize
All that we could be.
Hold onto what brought you here.


Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I, I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I, I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you


Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades
And how did I ever fade
Into this life



She stares through my shadow
She sees something more
Believes there's a light in me
She is sure

This world keeps on spinning
Only she stills my heart
She's my inspiration
She's my northern star
I don't count my possession
All I call mine
I will give her completely
To the end of all time

In her eyes I see the sky and all I'll ever need
In her eyes time passes by and she is with me



We're trying far too hard
The tattered thought balloons above our heads
Sinking in the weight of all we need to say
Why's and what if's have since long played out
Left us short on happy endings

And it's no one's fault
There's no black and white
Only you and me


I heard its lonely sound
It wasn't warring, it was weeping

"My friends," he said, "We've reached our goal
The threat is under firm control
As long as peace and order reign
I'll be damned if I can see a reason to explain
Why the fear and the fire and the guns remain."



The world has turned the day to dark
I leave this night with heavy heart
When I return to dry your eyes
I will sing this lullaby

And all love through darkness
Don't you ever stop believing
With love forlorn
With love you'll find your way
My love



and, the last one does receive a line of commentary. because it seems that it's all we never think could happen, and yet all we hope for. it's the fairytale that no matter how old we get, we still believe is true.

A waltz when she walks in the room
She pulls back the hair from her face
She turns to the window to sway in the moonlight
Even her shadow has grace

A waltz for the girl out of reach
She lifts her hands up to the sky
She moves with the music
The song is her lover
The melody's making her cry
So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently

A waltz for the chance I should take
But how will I know where to start?
She's spinning between constellations and dreams
Her rhythm is my beating heart

So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently

I can't keep on watching forever
I give up this view just to tell her

When I close my eyes I can see
The spotlights are bright on you and me
We've got the floor
And you're in my arms
How could I ask for more?